I'm On My Way

This post has been a long time coming.

Computer issues and life issues made it difficult for me to get around to posting.

I am in getting ready for some big changes. More big changes.

I have been continuing on in my journey to good health.

I am still getting healthy, losing weight and just began working out at a gym.

I went through a huge bout of depression over the past few months and had a difficult time finding my way out. I have been sad and depressed before. I have suffered loss and grieved and was sad for prolonged periods of time. But I always came out of it. This was different.

I was sad and crying and in my own head but there was no specific reason for it. Yes, I had lost some loved ones. Yes, I was under the usual stresses. Who in this world doesn't deal with all of this? But when I tried to get my head around why I was so sad, I just couldn't see it. I was going through the motions and smiling at the world but inside, I found myself feeling lost and sad and worried and not knowing why.

I could blame the winter and the lack of sunshine. It may very well have been chemical or hormonal  but it felt like I there was something wrong with me.

I survived. i still feel the sadness but not nearly as deeply as before and for shorter bouts. Perhaps I should have sought professional or medical help but, since my insurance has yet to kick in, I waited it out and talked to some dear friends.

I continued to try to eat properly and stopped and started exercising several times over but I was feeling like the lethargy and depression were winning. 

Over the past several weeks I have done some minor detoxing and started to pay more attention to what I am eating. I also joined a gym and am working once a week with a personal trainer. 

Maybe it's just that Spring is in the air or maybe the longer days are helping. It is twenty degrees and gray today but the sun is in and out and we turn the clocks on Sunday so I have hope for a sunny Spring.

There will be some changes coming to this blog very soon and I am planning some things for my future that I believe will be of use to many.

If I am absent from this blog it is because I am busy with all these things going on. I have to accept that something has to give sometimes and for now it will have to be Fluffy Girl. I am not abandoning her. I am improving myself so I can be present in my life.

Stay tuned! The best is yet to come!!