It's been awhile. Hard to find my inspiration lately.
I don't even want to turn on the computer. I'm stuck. And my tow truck is out of commission.
I try really hard to stay positive and upbeat but people can really drag you down. So I keep my distance. It's easier that way.
Had a tiny bit of progress in the weight loss department due to a lingering stomach virus. Probably lost close to ten pounds. Probably put it all back on just in water weight by eating Chinese food last night.
Whitney Houston died. It's kinda sad. She wasn't my favorite artist and I am not a fan of her choice of lifestyle but to each their own, I guess. What really gets to me is that she is only a couple of years older than I am. That is always frightening to me. It's sad when old folks die. But it's a little bizarre when it's my contemporaries.
I have my faith and even that can be shaken by all the BS politics and grandstanding I have been seeing lately. It sometimes seems so pointless to me when we know we will all come to the same end one day.
One day people are criticizing and vilifying a celebrity and the next day they are canonizing and glorifying them. I don't know why I let the hypocrisy of man surprise me. Over and over again, I am surprised.
I used to love facebook because it was a fun way to stay connected. But even that has been tainted. I see negativity and politics and judgement. If I wanted all of that, shit, I'd go back to high school.
Why can't we all just get along????
I saw a blurb on the news how there are people doing studies and looking into using social networking as a tool for hiring people. If you are more popular and get a lot of comments on your blogs and social network status updates, you are more likely to get hired by these companies. Seriously? Life has really become high school all over again. It's all a huge popularity contest. Presidential candidates are being chosen by their popularity. How many friggin' Republican Debates do we need??? Maximum-one. There have been like a gajillion. What's the point?
There are polls based on whether something has been liked on Twitter and Facebook. Why even have elections? Each candidate put up their page and we like or not and whoever gets "liked" the most wins.
I'm really not very good at controversy and I don't want to fight with people about what they think is right or wrong but, even I, in my limited sight, can see that the right is wrong. And the left isn't doing so hot either!
I'm just trying to stay hopeful and keep my head above water like the rest of the world. We're all looking OK on the surface but underneath we are paddling like mad.
When I was home sick last week (two days in bed with aforementioned stomach virus), I was feeling really awful, body aches, vomiting, headache, and I just wanted to know I was taken care of. My husband was home and he was there for me. Kissing my brow. Bringing me water and ginger ale. Covering and uncovering me depending on if I was in a sweat or if I was freezing.
I don't usually like to be fussed over or taken care of but it was nice to know he was there for me. That's what life is about. Having a soft place to land when you need it. Politics and popularity be damned.
